One time i arguing with my dad about him neglecting me and giving false ideas, he totally deny it?

Look, you have your point of view and your dad has his. What you need to do is more out and move on. Leave that life behind. focus on the path ahead and go for it. Don't make excuses for the past cause then you will only be building obstacles in front of you. Set small goals and work towards them. Take charge of your life. If you need any more advice drop me an email at advice_from_experience at yahoo. Good Luck